Feeling

you thought you liked someone
whom you thought liked you back,
but instead you get stabbed in the back.
he tells you to do one thing,
then tells you to do another.
it's like he's playing a game,
trying to mess with your head.
it makes you wonder if there's another.

it's not like i should care,
'cause i know we're not together,
but deep down inside it makes me wounder.
i've been hurt so many times in the past,
and i've tried to let it go,
but every time i meet someone,
i end up getting hurt.
i wounder if it's just me.
what am i doing wrong?
it must be something
i'm not doing right.

if i had one wish in life,
i would wish to be happy
for just one last time.
i am tried of playing games,
with everyone.
i'm not a kid anymore.

i'm ready to start a life.
i don't need anyone who's
going to hold me back,
i need someone to help me,
if only i could find
that special someone,
it would make things a lot easier.
why do things have to be so hard?
I'm ready to give up and move one with my life.

it hurts to say this, but
this is how i feel now.
i can't help what i feel or do sometimes.

but at least i know now
that i will never let myself get close to anyone again.
it's hard for me to tell people how i feel.
i know that i should, but every time i try,
i can't get it out,

I'm sorry for the way i am.
if i could change who i am,
to be with that special someone
i so care about,
then i would in a heart beat.
there would be no doubt about that