12 oct 2009 i'll remember

Do you believe there is truth love in this world? For me is 10% i believe. Why? Is it because of girl or boy that is not faithful? Or faithful but just want to try. It's used to happened to me before and it was really sad when was my first love. I keep telling my self never mind i'll find someone which is better than you, 2nd love is more terrible because he says goodbye to me thru the phone while i was so faithful. I told my self again that i don't want to fall in love with any boys. Until one day i threw a coin and which for soulmate but what i got from heaven it was not love but it was war love and connection i'm sad,crying,hurt but i never give up to start with someone again. Until today 12 of oct 09 my friend call me about her husband is cheating on her i was so suprised and sad to hear it. It makes me scare of future and married life. Why become like this? Is it because of men demanding and women never feel satisfiled?